SO CRAZY

Heyy!! Welcome back again here on my blog site, Me Time To Tell. How are you, guys? I hope you will be great always. On this page, I will share my feeling. I want to tell you a little thing that is either bad, embarrassing, or whatever. Lately, I love a song called With You by Park Jimin featuring Ha Sung Woon. I'm so falling in love with this song, although I don't feel the same way as the story in this song. A slightly different story to mine but it hit me as if I felt it too. 

Alright, I wanna share a little bit of my story like in the song. So, I closed to my senior when I'm in middle school. Maybe we can call him B. He's kind to me, sometimes he helps me to do my homework, and we have listened to music on the radio together. I sent him a message on the radio, and he did to me too. He accompanied me to study for some exams. Even though he wasn't present beside me in person, we had good communication at that time. I love him so much, but I don't know if I see him as a brother or a man. 

He was good to me until I expected him to always be with me. I felt that he was the one who was given by God to accompany me. We are also very close, although we rarely meet just to eat or watch a movie. We had also planned to go out together to see the sights. But it was like just an ordinary conversation ending in a dream. Ya. He disappeared for several months. He didn't see and answer my messages and I'm so sad it feels like half of my life has disappeared somewhere. He is the only person I really care about and the most important. 

My days are really bad. I can't do everything well. I felt he was playing with me, with those kind words. But my friend said that I was too hopeful. I was annoyed with his heresy. This bothers me a lot but I'll just wait for it. I only believe in one thing, that he will come back. Do not sure when. THEN HE CAME BACK after he disappeared. This person is still the same, nothing has changed in the slightest. 

As if nothing happened. We're back to talking as usual like before. And if he leaves again, I don't know, in the future, I'll love him more personally or the moments we've had.

There's something stupid that I didn't know if I should regret or not. I sent him a message with another phone number hoping to get a reply. It's nothing. Telling him how I feel is a very stupid thing. 

Did he read it through the notification? Or he really didn't read it because it was from an unknown number? I did not do introductions because I really wanted to tell how I felt that night. So Embarrassing!!!!

SO STUPID ARGH.